Saturday, October 8, 2011

random~

Kinda bored today...hmm...
suddenly crossed my mind of my little blog here that I left it stranded for quite some time...
I've been looking other bloggers blog and I'm surprised that my blog here is a little...SIMPLE?
haha...okay okay...It's too simple...
My apologize...because I just don't have the time to manage blogs...
My current timetable is a little PACKED...yeah...so...SORRY! =)
love can touch us one time, and last for a lifetime~
picked from Celine Dion's My heart will go on...
a very touching song I could say...

I wonder what had happened to my love...
she seems happy though...
I having my Malaysian University English Test(MUET) speaking test this Tuesday...
she got the same time slot with me coincidentally...
I'm not sure whether to be happy or sad...
She meant the world for me once but now...I could only wish her luck from far...
she told me that she wished that she could change her time because she doesn't want to be in the same group with me...
oh gosh...how hurt could i be..
but I still could not totally forget her...
It takes some time I guess...nevermind...
I got 2 coursemate of mine that I feel that they're into each other...
but they're waiting each other make the first step...
I'm thinking...why must you wait when both fancy each other?
go on and start the relationship already!
the passing of Steve Jobs left us with a lot of qualities in life...
he lived his life to the fullest thinking that any day he would leave the world...
that's what we should learn from him...
to not regret!
finally..rest in peace...
the founder of Apple...(not the one that could be eaten)
you truly brought the world one step further...

Wednesday, August 17, 2011

well well well~

there's 2 side of me...
the happy one and the emo one..
this side of blog consists mainly my emo posts...
haiz...
it's been so long since the last time i update my blog...
i met another girl...she's quite ok...
i tot that...hmm...maybe she can be the next?
but then...one thing bad bout her is that...
i dun hav that kind of feeling at her like how i feel to my ex...
maybe i jz cant let go...
i dunno...
i keep thinking that i promised to wait her(my ex now)...
and maybe bcoz of that i jz cant accept others?
today i went sunway pyramid with my frenz...
and my god...most of the ppl there come in couple...
im kinda jealous looking at them...
and...i sudden think of wat we did last time...
although it's for a short while..
many things happened...
haiz...
till when can i wait...><
 

Tuesday, June 21, 2011

im okay~

recently...im feeling quite okay actually...
oh ya...bout that girl i was saying...im glad i jz had some crush on her...
i dun really love her...so...sorry for the wrong information!
man we're teenagers...it's kinda hard trying to differentiate feelings rite? haha
and here i am...still loving my ex!
wow...i mean...WOW...haha...i jz cant let go of her...
i can't believe im actually some romeo type guy...
nah...BE HUMBLE...
taahaa...i watched a horror movie named "ladda land" yesterday...
damn the movie's awesome...
i met a pretty little girl~
here she is...
hmm...the pic's not really clear...but...nvm...i noe she's pretty...
and then i jz started watching a teenage drama...
the actress is...
stunning!
and here she is...
awesome huh?
haha...
i guess that's it...ntg more for me to write today...=)

Wednesday, June 1, 2011

haiz~

i still not used to life without her...
i feel empty...like...i dunno...empty...
why is that so?
haiz...
suddenly...damn bored...
frens pursuing their degree...
only few left to accompany me...
and...i used to think bout her...
but now...i dun think that much...
my mood's going from bad to worse...
i had a fren...
she...also nd to stay back here due to bad results...
her roommate already pursue to degree...
she keep having bad mood bcoz she miss her roommate too much...
bcoz of that...she treat me very coldly...
why shud i care so much?
my fren said that i had feelings on her d...
is it true?
hope it's not...
if yes...
then...another drama will come soon...
i dun wan that...
swt...

Tuesday, May 24, 2011

life after break up...

currently listening to canon in d...
very soothing...
today i tot of many things...
suddenly so many things pop out in my mind...
i suddenly tot of my childhood memories...
i remembered last time when i was in primary school standard 5...
i had some frenz that will always ask me to play counter strike after school at the nearby cyber cafe...
it's kinda bad for someone aged like me go to such place...
hmm...wat to do...frenz...haha...
then...i tot of my fren i met in tuition...he's the bad-type-of-kid-ppl-always-saying...
cant blame him actually...studying is not his kind of thing...
so he might not act civilised...
but i like ppl like him...straightforward...
he wont be like those educated ppl...always thinking of taking advantage of others...
guess there's pros and cons...
hmm...bout my girl there...
i went kl that day to shift my things to the new room i rented...
after that...i asked her out for movies...
during the movie...i dunno why...i cant ctrl myself...
i took her hand and hold tightly...
she pushed me away...
but...im stronger of coz...she cant move...
then...as we get nearer to each other...
i kissed her...
i can see from her face that she really dislike my act...
but i jz cant ctrl myself and continue doing that...
after the movie ends...we then walk to the car...
in the car...i kissed her again...
after that...i made my journey to fetch her home...
on the way...she didnt talk to me...
she was so quiet and her facial expression shows that she's very angry with me...
she din reply my msg the whole day...haiz...
my bad actually...
i hate myself too...><
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Wednesday, May 11, 2011

the really end~

yeah...
my first love...
ends jz like that...
i got no other fella to blame other than GOD...
my luck's really bad...
of so many universities...i wonder why i would end up studying in UTAR...
and...the year i enter is the first year they ever come out with such stupid course structure...
and...if not bcoz of UTAR...i wouldnt meet her...
why her?
she really changed my life...
she is the reason why i set up this blog...
i asked her again bout the incidence whr she went sushi with her frenz...
she explained...but not long after...
she stopped...and tell me that she's not gonna bother me anymore...
yeah...she did till today...
so i guess...that's the end of our friendship...
suddenly...i felt like saying this...
guys...if u somehow manage to find out that the girl u're after having princess behaviour...my advice...
dun go for it...
u'll 100% suffer!

Wednesday, May 4, 2011

regret?

do u realize that...
a little decision made on the past may affect ur future...
i always tot that loving her was a mistake...
she didn't even prepared to hav a relationship at all...
maybe my demands r higher...
but...
at least commit a little?
u told me few days back that u're sick...
i sent a few sms but u didn't reply at all...
i was very worried about u...
but u din even care to reply me...
if u're sick jz reply me that u're sick...
is it that hard to reply a few words msg?
later tonight u online...
i asked u whether u're okay or not...
u jz replied me a few words...
and continue doing ur things...
b4 this i enjoyed a few days trip with my frenz...
im quite happy when im back...
but now...the feelings haunt me once again...
i feel the gap between us already...
u treat me even worse than a fren now...
why...
i really dunno wat shud i do now...
im depressed...