Friday, December 31, 2010

the confession of me...

it's been a long time since my last post in this blog...
today is 31st of december...
a new year is gonna start...
i've been through a lot of experience this year...
now that i recall back...
im thinking some decision that i made could be wrong...
the most valuable experience i had which i could nv forget...
i finally manage to communicate with girls...
and...i even start wooing u...
i dunno how i did it...
but im glad of it...
but...things change...
i can't wait u forever...
all i could said was...
im sorry i've been disturbing u for the past 7 months...
i really appreciate the time we were together...
but i think i shud not continue wasting time for u...
from now on...
i would try not to text u...or even pm u in msn...
that was the least thing i could do...
and slowly i'll leave from ur life...
i could not forget the seconds we had yesterday...
juz after our finals...we went out together...
although it's rather a boring outing...
but it's probably the last time im going out with u...
i asked u again face to face...
u still give me the same question...asking me to wait...
and im the fool who still dun get it...
it's jz an excuse for u to delay it...
now that im more awake now...
so i guess...i shud end it...
that's my confession...

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

swt...update my blog after 1 week...==

emo...
i kept thinking the same question...
why wouldn't u reject me???
if it's that hard for u...
why dun u juz reject?
why???
i wont give up until u reject me...
heard some news today bout some guy commit suicide bcoz his gf somehow dumped him...(not very sure the incident)
he posted a post jz b4 he commits suicide..
many would said that his act is stupid...
but...to me...i think he's somehow brave...
doing something that i wont hav that courage to do so...
of coz...some may said..."u got that courage to kill urself...
but why dun hav that courage to face the problem?"
those r juz ppl who nv really experienced the problem...
did u noe to face the problems actually much more harder than dying?
this is the true example of falling someone  truly and deeply...
u would do anything for that someone...
i really salute him...
i won't follow his steps...yeah...im afraid of death...
probably bcoz i dun fall for u too much...
sem 3 coming soon...kinda happy with my timetable coz...i'll meet u more often...but this time got no break already...cant go out with u already...
nvm...let's juz see our  fate then...
nitez!~

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

hmm...here i am again...

yo~ sorry...kinda busy nowadays...cant find a time to blog...
i'll juz skip the days i missed since ntg much happened...
this morning...as usual...monday morning...
gosh...it's extra hard to wake up during mondays...
since it's the day whr we first start our class...
but somehow~ i managed to force myself to wake up...
bcoz...today's chemistry lab session is the only class i had in common with u...
gonna appreciate it...
so...i went to school...saw u...
im kinda tired actually...so...
din talk much to u...
then when class ended...we got 3 hours break...
so...we decided to go 1 utama~
when i was on my way to get my car...i saw...SHAWN!!! hahaha
he's acting cute asking me to bring him together...
"come on...u noe i wont bring u rite? haha"
sorry shawn...=)
"yeah~ going out with u again...happy^^..."
that's wat im thinking at that moment...haha...
this time the "u" refers to...of coz...u noe who...haha...not SHAWN a!!! ^^
so...basically we went 1u...walk walk...
then...u saw an advertisement...
there's a guy who looks kinda idiotic and fat...
u made fun of me...saying i look like him...
"come on lar...im not fat ok..."
that's why i told her...
then she keep laughing...
i started poking at her arm...*i like to do that to her^^*
i keep doing that until it's time for us to go back...
then we get in the car...u continued making fun of me...
i poke u again...but then this time u tried to block me...
then...i grab ur hand...hold it tightly...
u tried to make urself free...but...
im stronger ma...so...no way u're gonna be free...
i tot u'll got mad...but then...u continue making fun of me...
so...i juz hold ur hand...from 1utama...until i reach uni...
hahaha...i love that feeling...so...
unable to describe...^^
that's the end for to...day or night? haha...it's 1am already...gosh...
toodles guys~
 

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

love> study?

hmm...yesterday(since it's past 12am already)...
i woke up early...
slept at 3am that night...
woke up that early...
wondering wat is happening to my biological clock...@@
of coz...the first thing i tot when im awake was u...
u told me the other day that u're gonna reach school late...
hmm...
actually i hav class at 9am...
but...without ur existence...i got no mood to attend the class...
so...i decided to slack...
had a few match of sudden attack...
damn...those players...
how can they get headshot all the time???
*yeah...i noe i got off topic...hehe...*
the time i was longing for arrived...
i reached school...sms u wat time ur class ends...
so that we could hav lunch together...
u replied kinda late...
im starting to get frustrated already...
eventually...u replied...telling me that u're gonna skip ur class and go back earlier...
then i asked u wanna eat or not...
u didnt reply...
i wait and wait...
u still din reply...
so...i take my lunch with my frenz...
holding my handphone hoping that u're gonna reply me...
but...
haiz...u didnt...
after a few moment later...
u replied...telling me that u're out of credit...
gosh...i relieved...
after that...we continued sms-ing...
until night...u on msn...
i was waiting ur reply...
but u din...
after quite some time...
then u replied me...
i was emo already that time...
haiz...
we continued chatting...despite my emo...
i suddenly asked u...wat if i 1 day i dun bother u anymore...
u said u'll be sad...
then i give another condition...
"wat if other ppl dun bother u? is it the same?"
u said..."yes"
means u're treating me the same as others after all...
i asked u...
do u love me?
it's still the same old answer...u dunno...
haiz...
somehow i find this quote true...

爱情,需要的是感觉,不是时间,时间再久也不能让一不爱你的人爱上你,一个人,若是让你等了很久很久,那你该知道,他的心中根本就没有你,若是有你,他也会想要和你在一起...