sometimes it's best not to think much...

today...i had a boring day...

spent some time with u...

but didnt talk much...

i could feel the gap...

ytd...i asked u...did anyone confessed to u b4...

u said yes...

i asked wat response u gave?

u said some rejected...some dunno...

the word "dunno" somehow made me sad...

which means...im not the only one waiting for ur confirmation...

i noticed that...u really not into relationship type of gal...

no point me trying to prove anything to u...

u juz won't accept it...

even if u really accept it...

u won't be serious...

while chatting...

i noticed that u kept trying to end my conversation...

asked wat u were doing...

u replied chatting...

i dunno who u were chatting with...

but...im sure...they're certainly more important than me...

i noe...i shud give u some space...

but...since im not important to u...

why must i continue bugging u? i mean...i do hav dignity...

yeah...about the dignity problem again...

i care a lot wat ppl think of me...

juz 1 word that describes 1 bad thing bout me...

and i'll think and think if it's really me doing the mistake...

but...doesnt humans suppose to hav their own perception?

my perception might cause many ppl could not accept it...

but...it's mind...i was born like that...

anyone ask me..i would answer that...

looking at my previous post of how happy i am...

actually those r only imagination...

im having false hope...

u asked me...

why must u emo...

i told u...

i emo bcoz some gal dun tell me her answer...

and bcoz of that im emo...

you replied..."ala"...

then...no more replies...

when u're emo...and expressing ur feeling...

receiving such reply would really drive u crazy...

today is wednesday...

im suppose to accompany u for an hour...

u din msg me and gone to other floor alone...

i hate myself for following u when i saw u...

i shud had gone other place...

it shows how thick faced i am...

nvm...maybe after this week...i won't be following u already...

many frenz would object at the decision i made today...

but...i dunno...juz feel tired of thinking already...

busy week?

hmm...having a very busy week...

with 1 public speaking and 3 tests in line...

i dun seems to doing anything at all...

but instead...im enjoying myself...

wat happened to me???

i had lost the will to study...

why why why???

haiz...today...i went one utama with u and my fren...

we had lunch there...

u cant finish ur meal...

so i finished it for u...

i kinda like that feeling...

bcoz...i always helped my family finish all the leftovers...

now it's u...that feeling is like...with a family...

after that...during the night...

u even asked me to play game with u...

although to me it's lame...but...

playing with someone u like...

the feeling is not the same...

it's the best game i ever had...

today's post kinda short...

coz i had ntg else to write...

so...wait for tmr...it's tuesday...

i could only meet u at the morning...sad case...

1 fine day...

im happy today...

bcoz...i dun nd to study...hahahahaha...

erm and...bcoz i got to sms with u when i was almost bored to death...

when to cc today...haiz...

my skills in dota is deteriorating...

maybe too much alt+tab...haha

nvm...im ok with it...dota is not important for me anymore...

wat's most important is u...

but...i got the feeling that i only syok sendiri...

nvm...the important thing is i happy...

dun care wat ppl think...

i asked u again today...

when wanna be my gf...

u answered me "wait till i believe u"

wat an answer...

could be yes or no...

i dunno...but i shud give it a shot...probably this week...

dun wanna think much...

exam this week...

gotta concentrate on my exams first...

probably stopping dota could make myself hav more time...

this is the time for me to choose...

whether fren or you or study...

i could only choose 2...

dilemma...haiz...

nevertheless...goodnight! haha...

haiz...another swt day...

u still havent recover from ur sick and tmr is test...

can't expect u to reply me any better...

i juz hope that watever u suffering subsides...

i had a light chat with u juz now...

although it's rather cold...but...expected...

and yeah...the connection today damn suck...

keep clicking for reconnection...

missed ur previous conversation...

unable to reply u...

haiz...why...

nvm...

i told u that im worrying...

u tell me not to worry...

glad to hear that...

went out with my fren today...

told him my problems...

he said that i truly fall for her d...

i noe...if i dun fall that deep...

probably this blog doesnt exist...

this is the first time i like a person so much...

more than anything else...

haha...silly eh...

but...that's the power of love rite...

i believe anyone who experienced it noes my feeling...

but...i got a feeling that...

i may not hav fate with you...

there r many reasons i said so...

i asked u for a movie at the 1st time...failed...bcoz u got smtg important to do...

when i juz gonna further improve our relationship...

u got sick...

when i wanna ask u out for the 2nd time...u need to attend ur grandma's birthday...

now...i think u had forgotten our date already...

which makes me wonder...

r these coincidence???

i noe i shud not think too much...

but...nvm...

i'll juz give a lame excuse anyway...

tmr's gonna exam...i hereby wishes u luck...and...may u recover quickly...

wat matters the most...

is ur health...

toodles...^^

hmm...unlucky day...

hmm..din hav much talk today...

but still enjoying...

i noticed some diff in u already...

u're not cold towards me already...

instead...hot...

we had a little chat after we finished our homework...

then...ur fren came and we went eating...

then there's one guy...who i dun really like...

suddenly came and sat beside me...

talking to u...

but...i dun feel any jealous...

probably bcoz i assume the guy juz making fren...

or maybe...bcoz...i sense smtg in u that makes me feel secure...

after that...we hang out in an empty room with ur girl friend...

then...ur class starts...i walk u to the door... and wished goodbye to u...

u replied with a smile...

then...i went to my class...

when my class ended...i went to the class whr u were attending...

my next class was there...

so...while waiting i searched for u...

u were sitting beside that guy again...

then i saw u smiling at me...

which that feeling of killing that guy immediately melted...

when ur class ends...u went to rest...while i continue my class...

during the class is sms-ed u...

after a few sms, i decided not to disturb ur rest...

and concentrate on the class...

then...everything went bored after that...until at night...

u online...and u told me a bad news...

which is u were sick...

u told me u still nd to finish ur assignment...

i really wanted to help...but...cant...

all i hope now is u recover quickly...

haiz...actually i wanna ask u out this friday...since...u were sick...

i guess i'll juz cancel it...

enough for today...haha...nitez^^

hmm...ntg much today...

early in the morning...

sis told me to breakfast with her ytd...

i waited...but she din come...

so...i went to a quiet and peaceful to do my homework...

while doing...i was thinking of you...

i promised myself...so many times...i shud forget u...

but...why cant i?

after a while...u msg me...asking whr am i...

thrilled of coz...

immediately i replied u...and headed to the canteen looking for u...

i was happy...u made my day...

but...it's juz a short 30 minutes...enjoyed a little talk...

after that...i went for my tutorial class...

9am in the morning...while everyone was so energetic for their first class of the day...

im so tired...that i cant open my eyes properly...

slept for a short while...luckily the tutor didnt notice...

10pm...class ended...had to rush for the next class...which is bio practical...

one of the class i hate this sem...

dun wanna talk much bout it...

then...it's chemistry lecture...

i was sleepy at first...but then...

after my fren bought for me a can of nescafe ice...

i feel awake...at least...for half an hour...after that...

i couldn't resist...and slept again...

then i had 1 hour break...b4 going for my maths lecture...

took my first meal of the day...which is 2pm already...

haiz...the rest of the day...juz like that...

without u...my life is dull...

im glad that u chatted with ur old frenz...

u seem so happy...which indirectly made me happy too...

hahahaha...zzz...

sleepy now...time for my bed...toodles^^

day 1...

haiz...the end of day 1...

i try not think of u...

but ended up...swt...

i asked u...do u miss me...

u replied yes...

then i asked u...do u love me?

u replied yes...

but after i asked...then be my gf then...

u answered...im not a boy...lolx...

haiz...why...

why dun u juz answer me...iah

since u could said that u love me...

why...not accept???

u making me feeling confused...

oh yeah...about the relationship status in fb...

i was liking every status without reading it in fb...

that's wat i usually did...

suddenly one of my fren...

told me that she's gonna be my wife for 1 day...

i find it quite fun so i accepted it...

she had to do this bcoz im the 4th person who like the status she posted...

which says...she will married to the 4th person who like the status for 1 day...

so...to those who misunderstood...sry^^

im sincere...i only love u...