tragic day...

wow...it's my first time coming back from kl to my hometown by the north south highway...
kinda fun...although the car's kinda slow...
1 by 1...cars past by me...envy of them...driving such a nice car...
but...at least...i got to sms while im enjoying my slow ride...
and the best part...it's with u...
i went shopping and movies with u, my sis and ur fren today...
my sis kept asking me...why im so quiet...
she was worried that im jealous...
well...i did feel jealous...
but...it's ur fren...wat's wrong with talking with fren...
so...i manage to get rid of it...
no hard feelings...we went watching movies...
the cineplex was damn cold...
but the movie's kinda nice...
then...i fetched u and my sis back to school...
and i cont my journey fetching my fren....back to my hometown...
u asked me...wat makes me like u...
u said that u were cold to me...
to tell u the truth...i myself didnt really noe actually...
i juz noe that i like u...thats all...no reason...
sometimes...asking for answers is much better than juz accept it...
yeah...i opted to juz accept it...
every now and then...my eyes will automatically look for u...
it's kind of a habit...
and when some guy talk to u i feel jealous(a lot)...
when i noe that it's time for ur class i felt sad...
when im together with u i felt happy...although we din talk that much...
i juz enjoy having u with me...
these r some of the reasons that makes me think that i like u...
or i shud said...obsessed...
im still waiting for ur answer...
no matter u reject or accept...
im ok with it...all i wan u to noe that...
i love u~
note: im not emoing now...xP

bored night~

today...wednesday...

im having 3 hours break in the morning...

u hav 2...

so we hang out...

kinda bored...im doing my homework...and u take ur nap...

from time to time i'll look at u...

i got my car today...went one utama the moment i had it...

reached home...i on msn...hoping to had another nice day chatting with u...

too bad...today...u're doing ur report...

so...not much chatting today...

i asked u if u need me to fetch u back home...

u said ur fren would fetch u...

bcoz he could accompany u...

that means i cant?

im starting to feel jealous again...(i hate that)

then u said ur fren's a gay...

i wonder if it's true...

i've already did a mistake by saying that i wanna follow...

i shud not had asked...

regretting that stupid decision already...

after that...we din continue chat already...

i already run out of topic chatting...

sad case...my game gonna end juz like that...

shud i cr8 a new game?

im having silly imaginations and hallucinations ...

tired...gonna sleep now...

toodles~

 

wa...wat a tiring day...

after doing that stupid thing ytd...

and sleeping late...

wow...today...i felt...damn tiring...

almost the whole day im dreaming...

brain cant function well...

and the other reason is...

i kept thinking of u...

i noticed a changed in me after i met u...

i used to sleep early when i was in secondary...

bcoz i cant miss chatting with u...

i slept late...

i wont sleep until u sleep...

i was a school bullier...

bcoz of u...i somehow...turned "good"

i was emo bcoz of u...then anti emo...also bcoz of u...

i enjoy the feeling of liking someone...

that's bcoz i nv really pay much attention bout these when im in secondary...

all i do those days  were only games...

i went to the extend of playing truant and go to the nearest cc to satisfy my addiction towards games...

but now...i no longer that person...

today...i tried talking to u...

u acted perfectly normal...

then night...i chat with u thru msn...

u tell me that u're going out this friday with a male friend and his frens that u dunno...

that sense of jealousy immediately came to me...but i managed to cover it...

after u told me that i could go with u...

i kinda lost my mind when i said that i wanna follow...

well...this whole day i lost my mind...cant think properly...

but nvm...since i already asked...there's no turning back...

i'll try my best to watch my words next time...

yay...i'll be getting my car tmr...im gonna fulfill my dream to explore KL...

with or without u...

hahahhahahahahaha...

oh yeah...while chatting...i felt much loosen now...

since i already told u i like u...

i dun nd to hide my feelings already...

there r pros and cons on the decision i made...

but...im a human...i admit sometimes i kinda imba...(you can ignore this part if u're uncomfortable with it)

but...no matter how imba i am...i still will make mistakes!

it's late now...gonna sleep!hehe

GG...

i done one of the stupidest thing in the world...

i drop hint d...

i ask u...if i wan kao u...can?

u said i dunno...

then i ask again...u still answer the same...

u think that im sick...

swt...cant u juz answer...

no or yes i could accept it...at least im prepared...

i dun wanna continue waste time d...

week after week...

my 1st test is coming...

and im not prepared...

how now...i wonder wat would happen if i meet u tmr...

u tot that im playing...how...

wat must i do so that u believe me?

i juz need yes or no...

thats all...

u answer i dunno...

how am i suppose to continue???

that's all i can say...GG!!! ^^

mood : confused again...

today...dunno wat wind blow me...

makes me think lots of thing...

i recall my past encounter with u...

i realized that...hmm...

after all these while...i still cant tell whether u hav any feelings towards me or not...

that makes me kinda hard to continue...

sometimes ur replies could be as hot as the countries along the equatorial line...

sometimes it's as cold as arctic or antarctic...

i can't stand receiving some news about u that will hurt me...

i promised myself to quit emo and start being optimistic...

but...sometimes...the feelings...i juz couldn't control...

now wat i need most is to noe wat u think...

it's impossible to me...

coz...it seemed that u're unwilling to share private matters with me...

it could be either u're shy...or u juz treat me like normal ordinary fren...

sometimes i tot im juz satisfying myself by making fake imaginations...

my 1st test in 2nd sem is coming...i haven't prepared anything...

im still wasting my time thinking of all these silly questions which i could not stop it from coming...

i watched glee for ur sake...i read house of night for ur sake..

i did all these so that i hav smtg in common with u...

not that im forcing myself to do those stuffs...

glee and house of night r cool like u said...

but...YOU are the reason i started them...

wat i could said now is that im obsessed...

i tried so hard to stop those negative feelings...

but...in the end...i only manage to cover those feelings on the outside...

but inside...it hurts...

today...is my emo day...

-end-

running out of "fuel"

i think it's almost coming to an end of my "long" time chasing record...
broke the record though...since it's the first time i start to chase...girl...
the main problem im facing now is...
out of topic...which is similar to cars which r out of fuel...
without fuel...a car can't move...
same logic...
without topic...i can't continue...
always with the same old conversation...
maybe i shud quit dota and get a life like she had?
is it worth?
now it's either i str8 confess or juz continue with this i-dunno-wat-else-to-do situation...
stucked already...
like car too...running out of fuel...deciding to take short cut...or the long one which is safer...
i dunno why i relate everything to cars...but it's kinda make sense^^
great...im talking bout school with her...wat a lame topic...=.=...
due to the everyday update policy...im making myself awake juz to finish this post...hahahahaha ^^

mix mix ^^

wa...today...almost...like a worthless day...
i done ntg...
woke up late...
went breakfast at old town...
while eating...facebook...
while breakfast-ing...
wait for time to pass...
u promised me that u can fetch me to the bus station...
so i waited till 11.30...
reached 11.30...
i walked to school...anxious to see u...
reached school...i start to find u...
i go com lab...
then i saw my sister...^^
after realizing u're not in com lab...
both of us(me and my sister) headed to bio lab...
to see my future brother in law...LOLx...
yeah after visiting...
i smsed u and u said u're at canteen...
so i headed to canteen to see u...
found u easily...then...
sat down...chit chat a while...
lepak lepak...then ur father reached...
i went in ur car with some fear in me...
ur father's face expression...more or less like my dad's...
that kind of aura was intimidating me...
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but somehow...i managed to reach the bus station safely...thank god...haha...
then i continue my journey back my hometown...
on my way...
i kept imagining...
u and me going out...holding hands...
lolx...funny scene anyway...
i also figured out why i like u d...
there's so many girls around yet im fond of u...
now i noe why...
the way u treat ppl! the way u act!
that's why i like u...
not bcoz of physical attraction...^^
im glad i found out...
but...i really out of topic talking to u d...
u're a tv maniac...im a game maniac...
and you're not my gf yet...
nvm...haha...thx to my fren there...
i nd to finish the blog for today b4 i sleep...@@